Who am I?

As I listen to How He Loves over and over again, tears roll down my cheeks. My heart longs for my co-workers at Holiday Inn to know and feel what this song is portraying! I sing it at the top of my lungs as a cry out to the Passionate, Intimate, Loving and Jealous Father. That He would rain down His overwhelming and unignorable grace, love and mercy over my co-workers. Daddy, speak through me! Let Your words be what comes from my lips, let their hearts be open to what You want them to hear.

I had a dream last night. (good sentence huh?) My boss, Suzanne was in it along with a lot of other people, but the part of my dream that I will tell involves Suzanne. I was on my way over to her house because I had asked her if she needed prayer and she said yes, so I headed over. When I got there she was sitting on her deck/stairs with her sister and little boy. Her sister asked me where I go to church and so I told them that I went to House of Prayer. Her sister and son ended up leaving shortly after and so it was then just Suzanne and I. I began to pray and she joined in. Not long after starting to pray, the question of "who am i?" came to my mind. I then began talking about how Awesome God is, how he created the stars and us, and with that how He loves us and is Jealous for us! I caught myself going on and on and thought to myself am I just talking now, but I looked at her and she was intently listening with tears welling in her eyes.

I can't even describe how much I just want her to know how much her Father loves her!

So the who am I question came into the dream because I was thinking about it last night. After expressing thoughts last night to an amazing listening friend, the question arose in my head. I told her the fears that I had about this up coming school year, and as we were walking out of Mickey D's late last night I began to think "who am I to fear?" That fear that I have been feeling comes from not trusting that He has everything under control. Not trusting and believing the words of what He told me at sunday leadership meeting for IV last year (4-17-11), "Hey guys! I GOT this! I got this! I got it...really I do. I got this." Who am I to not trust Him? Like in my dream, He created the stars, all of them! He is in total control! He is the Beginning and the End! Yet, the One who created all of those stars, created me. And loves me.

He shows His love, affection, and intimacy for me in much greater ways than a man who is madly in love with his new wife to be. His love for me is more intimate than a dark room lit by candles and a wedding ring. His proposal to me, and to all, was and is the death of Jesus. And it doesn't stop there! He rose from that deathly hallow for us. He pursues us now by sending His Holy Spirit to meet us in this mess. AND the One who gave his life, Who took the sin of the world down to the grave with Him, is coming back for His bride!

So, who am I? (as you read this, believe it because it is for you!) I am His! I am His daughter (son)! I am His portion! I am His bride, the love of His eternal life!

So when this is true then there is no room for fear, except of Him, and there is no room for the lack of trust in Him!

haha. Thank you Jesus!