I never know where to start whenever I write on this. Guess I need to write on it more often and that might solve that "problem". To say the least and to kind of sum it up, I feel as though I have grown more in this past week than in my freshmen or sophomore year! Not all has been easy, but most definitely worth it! My heart, my soul is more and more hungry for my Father's face--I don't even know what to do with it all.



I will expound on one major aspect of this past week.



First off...a little background. For the past two years I have felt as though God has had something for me, a gift that I wasn't aware of yet. I have known that I am gifted in encouragement, but there was something else. I couldn't figure it out! Well I am a very visual person, always have been, so when I recieved my first vision from God, I didn't know what to do with it. I questioned, was that me? Did I just make that up? I honestly had been, in a sense, ignoring them because I claimed them to be part of my visual thinking.



Like I had stated in the last post, this past month has been insane. Just a couple weeks ago I decided to step out of my role as a small group leader. I was getting incredibly drained and I had been feeling like God was calling me some place else, where...I didn't know. After having made that descision I had to ask myself the question, "now where?". I didn't seem to "fit in" anywhere. So, in this search of pretty much trying to figure out a large chunk of who I am, I was asked the questions; "where do you find joy, what weighs you down, what fills you up?" Those questions intruiged me! I couldn't answer them right away. So thus began my observing of myself.


***this post wasnt finished when i started...and that was awhile ago, but im going to post it now just for the heck of it.lol even though i dont think points were finished.***